tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46779757080668184382024-02-19T01:37:24.339-08:00Songs From His NÿghtbirdHe permanently opened a door into my soul and ignited a fire in my mind and body that will never cease to burn.
little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.comBlogger332125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-32842794884364809252016-07-09T12:15:00.000-07:002016-07-10T07:13:58.830-07:00Long OverdueI realize this post is long overdue. Quite frankly, I haven't been able to bring myself to sit down and write...anything. Until today.<br />
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This year has been a tough one. Our dynamic took a backseat for quite a while, probably since around September of last year when Heron started having gallbladder problems. <br />
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He had surgery at the end of October and by the time he recovered, the holidays were right upon us. The start of this year was no easier than the end of the last. Work was very demanding for both of us, my father had several major surgeries, and my mother had one as well. Of course, I am in essence her care giver so that was a challenge. Can't forget the kids either. As they get older, their schedules and needs just seems to get more complicated. <br />
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All of this left almost no energy for us to nurture our dynamic. And in the chaos of all going on, our vanilla life became comfortable...for me anyways. <br />
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I still served in the capacity that I could but after a while, I began to realize that I didn't miss the punishments. I didn't miss the fear of some humiliating task. I didn't miss pain. There were a lot of things I didn't miss.<br />
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Our connection still seemed strong though. Despite all that was going on around us, we leaned on each other and found peace and comfort even though life was quite vanilla. I knew he was giving me the time and space I needed.<br />
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Admittedly, I began spending way too much time on Fetlife. I don't know what was going on other than I was using that as an escape from my life. I enjoyed the attention, until I didn't anymore, and then I pretty much abandoned that as well.<br />
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For a really long time, I had felt so over extended that my only solution was to withdraw from everyone and commit to focusing only on work, the kids, and Heron. <br />
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We tried a few times to revitalize the active dynamic but each time, we faced some set back. And honestly, I was mostly relieved. Whenever he mentioned "getting back on track", it was almost like panic set in, resistance set in, and in some ways even resentment crept in.<br />
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Who knows now...it might have come to fruition or it might not have but he mentioned several times that he needed to come up with something that would challenge me even more than last year. But some of the experiences had taken a toll on me, probably more so than we realized since I have a tendency to bury my feelings until they come forth later, usually quite unexpectedly.<br />
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Being disconnected from the dynamic, I had also started to see that I had
adopted my submission so well, that I had lost my
edge at work and with my kids. I had given up so much control that I lost confidence in controlling any situation no matter what the environment. And I was just starting to get that confidence back. <br />
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I remember standing in the kitchen during one of these "we need to get back on track" conversations and I asked him if we could keep things the way they were. <br />
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Yes...I was comfortable. Not being challenged had become comfortable. <br />
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So when we went on vacation at the beginning of the summer, and he questioned me, questioned my ability to give 100%...I admitted that I couldn't. I knew what 100% meant. It meant being challenged. It meant giving up all control again. And what scared me the most, was it meant recommitting myself to do whatever he wanted, even if it was something I didn't agree with.<br />
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The conversation didn't go at all the way I expected it. I didn't expect to be choosing release right then and there, but that is what happened. I had only intended to communicate that I didn't feel I could submit to the level he needed me to and still be myself and the person I needed to be outside of our relationship. Over the period of the next couple weeks, I tried to talk to him about it. I felt that there had to be a way that we could negotiate something that would allow both of our needs to be met while still honoring our D/s commitment to each other. <br />
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But Heron is and always has been an all or nothing person. This would be no different. There would be no negotiation, no limits, no conditions. And if I wasn't willing to agree to all, then there would be nothing...not even bedroom kink. I watched with a broken heart as he began almost immediately getting rid of all of our toys and implements. I can't stand that I've hurt him. He feels that maybe he cared about all of this more than I ever did, which couldn't be further from the truth. <br />
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On one hand, it all makes me very sad. On the other, his being so rigid makes me a bit angry.<br />
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But all I can do is respect his position. The readjustment is hard for us both, probably for him more so than me because I had already begun to mentally disengage from the dynamic months ago. <br />
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Somehow, we will get through it, as long as we have each other...in the end, that's really all that matters anyways. <br />
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<i>Thank you to all of you...those who followed my journey, those that that became friends, those who reached out to send well wishes or check on me during my silence. I suspect this may be my last post here but one never knows. </i> <br />
<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com29tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-51654334472444943122016-01-20T19:00:00.002-08:002016-01-20T19:00:34.087-08:00A Popular PostLast week I posted <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2016/01/my-pussy-doesnt-betray-meshes-just.html" target="_blank">My Pussy Doesn't Betray Me...She's Just Stupid</a>. Well, not only did I post that here on my blog but I had posted it on Fetlife as well.<br />
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I was absolutely amazed at what a huge success it was!<br />
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The comments and messages on Fet were flooding in from women all over with similar stories. I can't even describe what an awesome feeling it was to have written something that connected with so many. <br />
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One of the messages I received was from <b>Perverted Podcast</b> asking if they could use my post as a topic on their show.<br />
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WHOA!! How cool is that??<br />
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Of course, then I was like wait...what exactly is a podcast and how do they work? <br />
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So I have now listened to a podcast for the first time and thought I would share with all of you if you are interested. Here's the link...it's about 20-30 minutes into the show when they talk about my post. I couldn't help but laugh when they referred to Heron as my "boyfriend". <i>If they only knew... </i><br />
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<a href="https://soundcloud.com/perverted-podcast/show-32-labia-medical-emergancy">https://soundcloud.com/perverted-podcast/show-32-labia-medical-emergancy</a><br />
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Hopefully the link works. If it doesn't, let me know. <br />
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little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-226300254238225372016-01-10T08:43:00.000-08:002016-01-10T08:43:39.894-08:00My Pussy Doesn't Betray Me...She's Just Stupid<div class="content mls60 may_contain_youtubes">
And here all these years, I've been thinking it was some deep-rooted psychological phenomenon.<br />
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Well, last night I finally figured it all out as I was straddling
Heron, riding his cock. I couldn't help but notice she was a bit dry
which is weird because that's not typically an issue.<br />
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Anyways, a few minutes go by and I lean over, pressing my body up
against him so that we are face to face. He'd been relatively quiet up
until that point but then he asked me (in ya know..THAT voice), <strong>"Are you ready to be punished this weekend?"</strong>.<br />
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<em>Whoooaaaa! Hold the phone...What the heck just happened here?</em><br />
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My body froze and I began tallying a mental list of what I might have done or might not have done.<br />
Beginning to realize the list is perhaps just a bit longer than I
thought, I also realize something else as soon as I resume rocking my
hips.<br />
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She is now getting EXTREMELY squishy down there.<br />
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DAMN HER!<br />
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Please believe me when I say...I REALLY don't like punishment of any
kind. That whole disappointment in myself is a real bitch and I'm
usually crying like a little kid before it even starts.<br />
So back to the fucking and his list of the intended consequences.<br />
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<strong>"You know what the punishment is when you forget the coat hangers, right?"</strong><br />
"Yes, Sir". <em>SQUISH</em><br />
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<strong>"Do you think if I punish your ass, you will remember next time?"</strong><br />
"Yes, Sir". <em>SQUISH...SQUISH</em><br />
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<strong>"Do you think if I punish your tits, you will remember next time?"</strong><br />
"Yes, Sir". <em>OH GOD, why is she making this worse for me??</em><br />
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<strong>"Do you think if I punish your cunt, you will remember next time"</strong><br />
<em>whimpering</em><br />
"Yes, Sir". <em>By now, he must feel like he's fucking a mop bucket. These sounds are so embarrassing</em><br />
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Of course, he couldn't help but point out her reaction to his threats which didn't help matters at all.<br />
That's when it all occurred to me. It's not that she is betraying
me, giving away some dark dirty secret that deep down I actually enjoy
punishment.<br />
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She's just THAT damn stupid. Without understanding a single word, she
hears that tone in his voice, and the poor little thing just gushes.<br />
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Think of it like talking to your dog. You can tell your little pooch
that he's the filthiest most vile creature in the world for eating the
crotch out of your most expensive panties and that you are going enjoy
killing his sorry ass.<br />
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BUT say it with a sweet voice, and he just looks at you so lovingly,
with ears perked and tail wagging. Why...because he doesn't understand a
damn word you just said. He's just happy to have your attention.<br />
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So there you have it. Apparently my pussy is an attention whore with a really low IQ.<br />
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little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-15663193546160102392015-12-24T07:58:00.001-08:002015-12-24T11:12:15.800-08:00What a Year This Has BeenAs I look back over this year, I think of how much has changed.<br />
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I have changed...<br />
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Heron has changed...<br />
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We both have changed separately and together. But we have grown. <br />
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The first half of the year seemed quiet and typical. Just the two of us doing our thing.<br />
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And then I met <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/05/a-time-of-firsts.html" target="_blank">Chrysalis</a>, which changed my world completely.<br />
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Along with meeting her, I experienced life in a way I thought might never happen. <br />
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Then came my being <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/into-lionesss-den.html" target="_blank">loaned</a>.<br />
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This brought SO many new experiences, all in just a short two day period. <br />
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And let's not forget about mine and Heron's <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/10/finally-here.html" target="_blank">photo shoot </a>and visiting a <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/10/make-us-proud.html" target="_blank">swingers club</a>. <br />
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While the middle part of the year was packed full, the latter part has been largely quiet (much like this blog) except for officially becoming part of the <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/11/the-slave-register.html" target="_blank">slave registry</a> and my <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/11/my-sunday-date-with-sadist-of-different.html" target="_blank">pole dancing </a>classes. <br />
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This year has had it's share of ups. But you know how things go. With "ups"...there is almost always a "down". <br />
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There has been quite a bit for each of us to process on our own and as a couple. At times, my mind was just too pre-occupied to write, almost like I had a million things to say but couldn't find the words. <br />
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Thankfully, Heron also finished school so in the quiet time, we have more time to spend nurturing "us".<br />
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I think it's been fairly obvious by the few posts recently, that I have been on a path of reflection and introspection.<br />
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Sometimes, the "quiet" needs to happen. <br />
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Who knows where the path goes now. Only time will tell. <br />
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But Heron and I would like to close out this year by saying thank you! <br />
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To my friends here that provided advice, kind words, and support...I truly appreciate each and every one of you. <br />
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To my lovely lurkers, I appreciate and adore you too. <br />
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To those of you that reached out seeking our advice, we are humbled and flattered. <br />
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I wish you all...Happy Holidays and a Prosperous New Year!<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">While I cannot claim credit for the quote as it was given to me by someone else, it speaks volumes!</span></div>
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-26822853263445017982015-11-30T16:43:00.001-08:002015-11-30T17:14:28.045-08:00"Sock" It to MeIt's been quite a while since I felt the sting of Heron's disappointment and the humiliation of being punished. <br />
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Thankfully, punishments are rare these days. Typically for us, a stern warning here and there goes a long way towards righting the ship that is beginning to steer off course. <br />
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But there was this one thing...<br />
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You know how inevitably, one sock out of a pair always gets lost in the laundry? <br />
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Somehow between the washer and dryer one of them just...disappears!<br />
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Well, we have been experiencing a slightly different phenomenon in our house but still relating to socks. It's more like one never makes it to the laundry. Almost every time single time I scoop up dirty clothes, I manage to leave ONE sock behind on the floor. And even though I feel like I double check myself all the time, it has continued to happen. <br />
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Heron has been quite patient with it, sometimes even joking about how it's now like my little "signature". But I also knew the underlying message, in a gently way of course, was to correct the problem. <br />
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Well, I was out with my daughter the other day when I received a text message from Him with this picture attached.<br />
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And the words...SOMEONE IS IN TROUBLE.<br />
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Now the last couple of months, Heron has been dealing with a medical issue which means life for the most part has been, well just that...life. He ended up having minor surgery just a little over a month ago and I am happy to say He has recovered nicely. <br />
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But that text message definitely signaled that He was getting back on the horse and ready to deal with any lack of focus on my part. <br />
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It was several days before He actually had the time to follow through on any punishment. And like a kid, I tried extra hard those few days, hoping He might put it out of His mind. <br />
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Nope...that didn't happen. <br />
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The other night He told me it was time to deal with some business. He ordered me to remove all my clothes and kneel in the middle of the bedroom floor. <br />
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Nothing had even happened yet and tears were already welling up in my eyes. As I knelt there, looking at the floor, He asked me if I understood why I was being punished. I understood perfectly. Didn't stop me from being angry and disappointed. <br />
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I felt sure that my punishment would come in the form of a paddling but Heron always does know how to surprise me. <br />
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As I knelt there, He walked away for a moment and returned with a sock. Yes, one of His dirty socks!<br />
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Bet you can guess where that sock went! <br />
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If you guessed in my mouth, well then, you would be correct.<br />
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As He sat back on the chest at the end of our bed and folded His arms, I felt the increasing weight of His stare as I continued to keep my eyes on the floor. Tears rolled down my cheeks and my mouth was humiliatingly full of smelly dirty sock. And while I couldn't stand that my actions had made this necessary, I could feel the anger and disappointment fading away and the humility seeping back into my soul. little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-61565349139056904962015-11-27T20:53:00.001-08:002015-11-27T20:53:30.647-08:00The Slave RegisterHeron has debated for a while on whether I should be added to <a href="https://www.slaveregister.com/" target="_blank">The Slave Register</a>. He never believed that it was necessary for our respective roles or that it would make us any more official. For us, the truly defining moment was our collaring ceremony. <br />
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However, as more of a symbolic gesture, He did decide to go ahead and add me the other day. Perhaps I underestimated how I would feel once seeing it in black and white.<br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-63980112954124792412015-11-19T16:45:00.000-08:002015-11-19T16:45:27.403-08:00My Sunday Date with a Sadist of a Different Kind<div class="content mls60 may_contain_youtubes">
The room is cold and dark, lit only by the twinkling of colored lights flashing from the ceiling.<br />
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As I wait for her to come in the room, I look around nervously, not fully understanding the extent of what's to come.<br />
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It promises to be a session like no other I have experienced for sure!<br />
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Like a true sadist, she pushes me further than I thought possible.<br />
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So many times, my body screams and begs to call "red"!<br />
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But instead, I only dig deeper, intent on pushing my own physical limits.<br />
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Now, it's been been two days since that session.<br />
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The bruising isn't nearly I bad as I thought it might be.<br />
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But...<br />
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The soreness... OH MY GOSH... THE SORENESS!!!<br />
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It's a deep aching pain. You know the kind that makes something as simple as pulling up your pants seem like a chore?<br />
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<i>Yes, it's that kind of sore!</i><br />
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I hurt in places and ways I didn't know that I could.<br />
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My next meeting with this sadistic woman, oh I already cringe to think.<br />
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However, despite the pain, I am proud to say I survived my first pole dancing class.<br />
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And I climbed my ass all the way to the top of that pole!<br />
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little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-89666134428998713832015-11-17T16:10:00.001-08:002015-11-17T16:10:41.724-08:00Beyond the Words<i>Pearl over at <a href="http://happilysurrendered.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Happily Surrendered and Submissive</a> made a comment on my last post about how my heart was in such a good place these days. Her observation was very touching and is also spot on. In fact, that very day, I had just posted the following as a writing on my Fetlife profile so I thought I would share it here as well...</i><br />
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Strip away the labels, the rules, the rituals.<br />
True happiness lies in those things unspoken and less defined.<br />
It's in his gentle touch and how it radiates through not just my body but also my soul.<br />
It's in the way my heartbeat slows to match his when wrapped in his arms.<br />
It's in his eyes when he looks into mine and knows all the hidden secrets.<br />
It's in the way he drinks in my scent like it's a hit of his favorite drug.<br />
It's in the way the beast peacefully slumbers once his appetite has been sated.<br />
It's in that moment when he allows me to experience his vulnerability.<br />
It's in a connection so powerful, we can predict what the other is thinking.<br />
It's in knowing I would never want to spend a day on earth without him.<br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-63906445939904681192015-11-12T14:24:00.001-08:002015-11-12T14:24:46.582-08:00The Truth<div style="text-align: center;">
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Now I realize,
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little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-12308322616794640012015-11-04T05:01:00.002-08:002015-11-04T05:05:49.069-08:00Embracing "The Girl"As a child, I was always very adult like, partly because I was mature for my age, but mostly just because this was expected of me. Not that my childhood was horrible. But being "a child" was discouraged. I also grew up believing that I didn't have a voice, that I was responsible for others happiness, and I always had to be strong.
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As an adult, life has dealt some pretty shitty blows. This is no different than anyone else, I realize that. But it's always been my job to hold it all together - be strong for everyone around me. Even when I wanted and needed to be the one to fall apart.<br />
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As a slave, I understand that sometimes I still don't have a say. And while I may not be responsible for His happiness, I am responsible for being pleasing by doing what is expected. At times, being a slave requires a strength that I feel I have acquired over my lifetime.
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But for the first time in my life, I have finally accepted that someone else can and wants to take care of me in return. It's okay to feel small, to let down your walls, to allow yourself to feel just a bit needy. There is safety and security in trusting someone so completely.
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Finally, I am learning to embrace "the girl" I never was.little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-59608836418776170202015-10-12T14:19:00.003-07:002015-10-13T18:54:36.517-07:00Picture PerfectTo me, this picture is a beautiful representation of how much my life has changed in less than one short year.<br />
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I am so grateful for all the new experiences thus far and the truly wonderful people that have shared in those along the way.<br />
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To Heron, I think this photo served as inspiration to remind me just how torturous this darn little wand could be! Saturday night he pulled it out for a little"fun", but that's a story for another post😊 little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-23535034442133284062015-10-08T16:51:00.002-07:002015-10-08T16:51:59.447-07:00A Little Late to the PartyYes, I suppose I am a little late to this particular party or lagging a bit behind. <br />
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<i>Oh...this post may very well be filled with puns. Haha! </i><br />
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What's this party you ask?<br />
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Well it's the Glass Plug Party!<br />
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And now, I would like to officially bid thee farewell to my menagerie of silicone plugs!! You are no longer good for me. <br /><br />Why I didn't try a glass plug sooner...I have no idea. <br />
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But you know what they say? <br />
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Better late than never! Fashionably late is cool, right? <br />
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All this time, I guess they just seemed too intimidating...too cold...too unyielding.<br /><br />However, after my escapades the weekend of my loan and having to fight that damn silicone plug to stay in the whole night, while dying a thousand deaths of embarrassment every time I had to shove it back in, I decided it was time to...take the plunge. <br /><br />Of course, after asking Heron if I could buy one, He was all too happy to help me pick one out.<br />
<br />So last week, my assignment was to wear it everyday from the time I got home from work until bedtime. If I failed to have it in, sex was off the table.<i> </i>Well, it was for me anyways. It's never off the table for him<i></i>. Better believe I was on top of that assignment. <br /><br />Don't get me wrong...using a glass plug seemed to take a little more patience and relaxation, especially the first couple times I used it. Getting past that bulbous head was a bit of a challenge but once it's in...IT'S IN!!<br /><br />I literally felt as if I could do anything and it wasn't going anywhere. <br /><br />For the first time EVER, I actually enjoyed sex while plugged, without launching a missile. Don't laugh...you know exactly what I mean. <br /><br />I'm addicted!<br />
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And if you find yourself reading this and think "Wow...the plug in that picture looks familiar." Well yes, I totally copied. You know who you are! :-)<br />
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little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-48672986499013664082015-10-03T18:35:00.001-07:002015-10-03T18:35:29.480-07:00Make Us ProudLast Friday night, Heron and I had some special plans. We met the Mistress and her boyfriend at a local swinger's club. <br />
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The last time I had seen her was the weekend spent in her service, so I was a bit nervous, not knowing what to expect. Of course, this was also the first time Heron and I had been to this type of club so we just didn't know what to expect in general. <br />
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The night was fun and included some girl/girl action, which was certainly a hit with all of the guys at the club.<br />
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One of the highlights had to be the wet T-shirt contest. As soon as Heron and the Mistress heard that there would be such a contest, they agreed that I was going to be in it. <br />
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The shirts were passed around to all the contestants and then we were called down to the dance floor. Heron sent me down with a hug and a kiss, and instructions to make him proud. <br />
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Just before the contest started, the Mistress came to the edge of the dance floor and called me over to her. She planted a kiss on my lips and tweaked my nipples, making sure they were nice and stiff underneath my shirt. Looking at Heron and then back to me, she said in a firm voice, "you make US proud". <br />
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Not that they really needed to worry about making them proud. With my competitive nature, I really don't like to lose a contest. <br />
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Standing side by side with the other women in the competition, the music started and as did the water works. People armed with spray bottles, began dousing us as we danced to the music. I danced as seductively as I could, pulling at my shirt as it clung to my body. I should mention that all I was wearing besides the shirt was a towel around my waist...with nothing else underneath. The towel was stripped off and thrown aside, bearing all my "assets" to the club, as I continued dancing for the remainder of the song. <br />
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The music stopped and the votes were taken by audience applause. The emcee decided that there should be a stripper pole dance off between the top three. <br />
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And I was one of the three!<br />
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My previous experience with the pole and the lessons that the Mistress gave me a couple months ago sure came in handy. This time when the votes were taken by audience applause, I WON!<br />
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<i>And</i> I came home with an extra $100 in my wallet.<br />
<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-44504207189601825902015-10-01T17:48:00.000-07:002015-10-01T17:48:10.895-07:00Finally Here!The pictures from our photo shoot are finally trickling in. Four weeks of patiently waiting...and Words cannot begin to describe how excited I have been to see these!! <br /><br />Unfortunately, there are many that show our faces so I hate that I won't be able to post those but I hope you enjoy the ones I can share!<br /><br />Such a simple pose but so much captured here!!<br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-91120798894422064192015-09-18T15:18:00.001-07:002015-09-18T15:18:24.187-07:00Knowing One's PlaceSeems I have competition these days for Master's attention. <br /><br />As I stand in the kitchen making dinner, I hear that all too familiar sound of the garage door letting me know Master just got home from work.<br /><br />Stopping what I am doing, I take my place, kneeling down on the floor by the door so that I am the first thing he sees when he comes in. <br />
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I wait patiently to greet each of his shoes with my kiss, which is always followed by him taking my hands and pulling me up to him for a kiss. I love this new little ritual. <br /><br />But here<b><i> SHE</i></b> comes again, ready to greet her Master too. <br /><br />Her eyes stare longingly at the crack of light coming from under the door. Her ears perk because she can hear the sound of His footsteps coming from farther away than I can.<br /><br />She begins pacing as she continues to wait but then stops firmly in front of me and sits down, still intent on the door.<br /><br />Greedy bitch she is...tries to be the first. Oh, we have played this game before. <br /><br />This time, without moving an inch, I softly growl two words, "Get back". <br />
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I smile to myself when she gets up and moves away from the door, actually going off to eat her dinner and wait her rightful turn. <br /><br />I may be the boss at work, but we all know I am not the boss at home. <br />
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However, I will be the alpha bitch! <br />
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I'm not typically one to need, or even desire much aftercare when it comes to most things Heron and I do. But in this particular situation, it's probably not difficult to imagine that proper aftercare was crucial to my ability to process and accept everything that happened and to do it in the most positive way possible. Working through all the emotions wasn't going to take just a couple of hours, or even a couple of days. Aftercare was going to be an on-going process until it wasn't necessary anymore.<br />
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The one thing that was quite obvious after I returned on Sunday was that we needed more time together to rest and recuperate. Heron insisted that I call in to work and take that following day off, and He did as well so He could stay home to look after me.<br />
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His process of "reclaiming" me had been yet another intense experience but from that point forward, His focus became helping to build me back up, both physically and mentally. <br />
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The entire next week, I was required to do very little. All household chores and tasks were suspended. Any physical exertion, outside of just normal day to day activities, was reserved solely for intimacy with him. He pampered me in just about every way possible which I thoroughly enjoyed even though I tried not to get too used to it. <br />
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We also spent more time that I can even comprehend just talking that week. Heron wanted, or rather NEEDED, to know every last detail of my experience. It's how He processes and being quite honest, it wasn't just me who had a lot to work through. <br />
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But there was so much, so many little details that I didn't remember until even days later. While He knew the major highlights of my time away, the depths of the story unfolded bit by bit as my brain and body relaxed enough to regurgitate it all. It was odd how I could be doing the most random thing and then out of the blue, some thought or memory would flash in front of me. He was always right there ready to listen and talk about it. <br />
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At times, the conversations between us were quite emotional. And I am thankful he exposed that vulnerable side of Himself. It proved to me that He didn't take His choice, or my experience, lightly and that He really was bearing the full weight of His decision. The honesty in our discussions kept me from retreating to that quiet place inside myself. It's in that quiet place where my thoughts get confused and lost, and my mind settles into the darkness. He was determined to keep me from going there. <br />
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But eventually, even I grew pretty tired of thinking and talking about it. Routine and resuming life as we knew it was what I craved. Kneeling in front of Heron exactly one week after coming home, I expressed how I needed our structure again and He agreed it was time. <br />
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Heron was very fond of the greeting and serving protocol that I had learned so those were implemented into our normal routine starting that second week. And with the soreness pretty much finally gone from my body, we also resumed position training. This was something Heron was unhappy with Himself for neglecting. Not only was it a good refresher but a good way to ease my body back into light physical demands. He kept exercise still limited though. <br />
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We have still continued to talk about it but on a much less emotional level. Usually it's because He has some kind of question about something I have already told him and is just looking for clarification. Sometimes we talk about where we go from here. I know this won't be the end of my challenges, which is a little scary. <br />
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think we both recognize how it has changed us and how we have grown both as individuals and
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<span id="goog_238532291"></span><span id="goog_238532292"></span><br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-27964465017638040622015-09-04T19:57:00.001-07:002015-09-04T19:59:13.762-07:00Making Master UncomfortableAugust was quite an interesting month for us. If you have been reading the past several posts, you already know about one of our recent adventures.<br />
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But I did say, way back in an earlier <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/back-to-routinesand-new-experiences.html" target="_blank">post</a>, that we had TWO new experiences planned so that means I still have one to talk about.<br />
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This past Sunday, Master and I had a photo shoot. Not just any photo shoot...a fetish photo shoot!!<br />
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And I think for once, instead of my boundaries being pushed, it was Master who was WAY out of His comfort zone.<br />
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Originally, I thought He might just be in a few of the pictures but He actually participated in almost all of them. <br />
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I can't even begin to explain what an amazing experience this was, especially for us to do it together. <br />
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Gosh...it's making me crazy to wait to see the final results!! Perhaps, I will even be able to share some of them when we get them back. <br />
<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-9305283402273979742015-08-27T18:13:00.000-07:002015-08-27T18:13:35.448-07:00Fly Free (A Post By Heron)He stared up at the beautiful slave as he sat, one leg
folded over the other in the arm chair in their bedroom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She presented herself, hands clasped behind
her head, legs spread slightly apart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Eyes downcast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A thousand
thoughts raced through his mind as she stood before him.<br />
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He had loaned her out to another for the weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The Mistress that he had given her to had
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Had he done the right thing? What if he had failed her? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What if he had not prepared her properly for
what had happened? What was the look on her face?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Was she afraid that he wouldn’t love her
after the things she had done? These thoughts ran through his head as he
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He knew there was only one way for him to find out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He wanted to reach out, stroke her cheek, but
he didn’t think that would ease the thoughts that were bouncing around in her
mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He wanted to release her from
worry, but he wasn’t sure how.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So he did
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When he rose and moved towards her she flinched slightly. </div>
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He spoke to her cruelly asking if the marks belonged to the
Mistress.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She could only nod.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He touched her tits.</div>
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“Did the Mistress whip these?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Yes sir”, she barely whispered.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Moving behind her, he touched the bruises on her butt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“And did she leave these?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Again she whispered, “Yes sir.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Circling her again, he ran his fingers along her jaw and
turned her head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“What about the bruises
on your neck? Did the Mistress have other men suck on your neck?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
The first tear appeared in the corner of her eye.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Again, she whispered, “Yes sir”.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Did the Mistress allow men in your mouth?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did you suck cock?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did you swallow their come?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Even as she nodded, the tears streamed down her cheeks.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“I know what you did and how many times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You danced for other men.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You begged for their cocks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then you sucked them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Didn’t you?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
More tears and a choked “Yes sir.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He began to fire words at her. “Do you know what the
Mistress was doing?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She was passing you
around.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You were nothing more than a
piece of meat. As a matter of fact, you had to beg like a whore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Right?<a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="_GoBack"></a>”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She sobbed slightly, tears streaming freely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Yes sir.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“You. Are. A. Whore.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He spat the words at her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>He thought that this might be her greatest fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The look behind her eyes, but he wouldn't
know until he spoke the cruel phrase.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She tried to hold her position, but as she heard his words
she broke and began to sob uncontrollably.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“No”, he said forcefully, raising his voice for the first
time.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“You will not cry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
will take all of those marks back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You
belong to me and it’s time I reclaim you.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He held her for a moment, allowing her to regain her
composure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Holding her close.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Placing her back in position, he examined her breasts and asked
her what the Mistress had used to whip her tits.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When she replied, he grabbed the implement
from his bag.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I’m going to whip them
harder.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These are mine”, he said simply.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He used the leather on her tits as she sobbed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He stopped using the leather only after the
breasts were an angry bright red.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Then he bent her over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Grabbing a cane, he walked back over to her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Your ass is mine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will not stop until I have covered all of
her marks.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He struck her over and over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She sobbed freely, but didn’t move, even as he crisscrossed her ass with
welts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
When he was satisfied that he had covered the Mistresses
bruises with marks of his own, he stopped.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>He could only stare at her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She
was bent over, sobbing and shaking.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Move to the bed”, he ordered.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Sobbing softly, she did as required.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He positioned her and traced the barely visible words on her
stomach.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“What did this say,” he asked,
even though he knew the answer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For the
Mistress had written two words on her midriff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The words noted her for what she was. She had been required to parade
around with it all day for everyone to see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She could barely bring herself to say the words, “Cum slut,
sir.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He grabbed a marker and moved next to her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He wrote over the words to supply his own…<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Heron’s nyghtbird</i>. She couldn’t help but
smile, as he said, “There.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now I own
that as well.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He traced the bite marks on her thighs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She winced in pain as he did so.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Did she bite you?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did she mark you with her teeth?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Yes,” she replied softly.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He lowered his mouth to her bruised thigh.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He kissed the wound softly and she
moaned.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He took her hand and placed it on
the side of his face.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“This is going to
hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m taking that bite mark as my
own and it may make you scream.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want
you to push me away when the pain is too much.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He looked at her once and then his teeth covered the
bruise.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He heard her cry out, not caring
how much it hurt her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Harder and harder
he bit, waiting for her to push him away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>His teeth dug into her and he felt her hand on his face begin to move.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
To his surprise, she cupped the back of his head and pulled
him down harder on the wound.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He
increased the intensity and heard her gasp in pain, but still she held him to
her flesh.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Finally, afraid that he
would draw blood, he pulled himself away from her and stared at her.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She was panting, but he understood the look in her eyes all
too well.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He moved on top of her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She moaned softly and greedily as he slowly slid himself into her. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Then he grabbed her head and turned, exposing the marks on
her neck. Whispering softly, he said, “Your neck is mine.”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He lowered his mouth to the bruises. She gasped as she felt
his lips touch her neck.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>First he kissed
the marks softly, then biting and finally sucking hard on her neck.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once he was satisfied that he had covered the
bruises with his own, he turned her head the other way and lowered his mouth to
her again.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Then he was sucking and biting again in an attempt to erase
all traces of the men who had marked her.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Finally satisfied, he turned her head to face him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Look at me,” he ordered.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She faced him, barely able to look in his eyes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“All of the marks that were made have been covered with
mine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is nothing that you did,
that you weren’t supposed to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You
were required to obey.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To submit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My marks will erase any guilt, for there
should be none.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My marks take away any
self-doubt, for you were required to serve her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My marks take away any thought that I would not love you. Do you
understand?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She nodded.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Tears began
to fill her eyes once again.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Do not cry my love,” he whispered as he kissed her
softly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He moved his hand underneath the
small of her back and pulled her tightly to him. He began to kiss her again and
again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She responded hungrily.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Their bodies began to move together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A harmonic dance they’ve practiced thousands
of times before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He knew her body well
and could tell she was nearing her climax.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“When you orgasm,” he said to her, “You are my cumslut.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are my whore. You were not marked by
anyone but me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are mine!”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
With his words, her orgasm neared, “Please sir may I come,
“she cried out.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Fly free my nyghtbird,” he whispered softly in her ear.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And she did.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<br />
<br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com21tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-78996803028112774212015-08-25T04:56:00.001-07:002015-08-25T04:58:03.830-07:00Coming Home<i>Continued from <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/the-long-night-and-girl-at-club.html" target="_blank">The Long Night and the Girl at the Club:</a> this slave's account of being loaned for the weekend. </i> <br />
<br />
Thoughts consumed my mind as I drove home late that Sunday morning. His instructions were to be home no later than noon and the last thing I wanted to do was displease Him by starting off with a punishment for being late. <br />
<br />
After being completely naked for two days, it almost seemed odd to be wearing clothes again. Every part of my body, from my jaws to my ankles, ached and was fatigued. But all I wanted was to be in my Master's arms, to know that I had made Him proud and that everything between us would be okay. <br />
<br />
As I looked at myself in the rear view mirror, I couldn't help but wonder how I was going to hide the large bruises on either side of my neck, the very obvious remnants from a game of "who could leave the largest hickey". <br />
<br />
I then looked down and very gently touched the swollen and extremely tender bite marks left on each of my thighs by the Mistress. They were already bruising but would be hidden more easily than the marks on my neck. <br />
<br />
The faded phrase "Cum Slut", my given name for the weekend, was hidden underneath my shirt. I thought back to how the group of people in our condo had stood around watching while the words had been neatly written across my pelvis and how I had been required to wear my humiliating name all day Saturday so that everyone at the pool would know who I was. I felt a bit protected hiding behind sunglasses but apparently that wasn't disguise enough. People still stared and some even asked, "are you the girl from the club last night?"<br />
<br />
But overall, Saturday was tame by comparison to Friday night, and for that, I was thankful. I had been unable to fall asleep after all that had happened so I was running on nothing but fumes and the last reserves of adrenaline.<br />
<br />
My gut instinct was that she was planning something else big for that night. I stayed on pins and needles all day and my stomach churned from the lack of sleep and the thought of what was to come. Not only was I afraid of being the entertainment yet again, but this time I feared being used even harder and longer than the night before and with no rest, I wasn't sure I would be able to handle it. <br />
<br />
As luck would have it, everyone else was exhausted too and ended up relaxing for the evening. <br />
<br />
While I spent the day still technically "in service", following protocol and rules, the mood was much more relaxed. It was nice just spending some time together with the Mistress more as friends.<br />
<br />
In case you ever get the chance, playing naked Twister is actually a whole lot of fun!<br />
<br />
I was also the afforded the opportunity to provide some pleasure to the Mistress. A couple of times actually!<br />
<br />
And when joining the Mistress and her boyfriend in bed that night, they requested that I put on a little show just for them. Normally, I would have felt uncomfortable masturbating in front of someone else, especially in such an up-close and personal kind of way. But I guess after everything else I had already done, it just didn't seem like a big deal at that point and was actually quite enjoyable.<br />
<br />
Laying on the bed, I played with my pussy as the Mistress required. After I had been pleasuring myself for several minutes, the Mistress and her boyfriend began fucking right there beside me. The thought of them watching me, while I watched them, was incredibly erotic and pushed me right over the edge of an earth shaking orgasm. <br />
<br />
All the images from the weekend, both the pleasurable and the painful, played out in my head over and over again as I drove. Being the perfectionist that I tend to be, I even thought of the ways I could have been better. But everything seemed almost surreal. It was quite a lot to process and it was obviously going to take time before I knew how I really felt about it all. <br />
<br />
The house was quiet when I walked in the door. Looking for Master, I climbed the stairs, my sore legs reminding me of the exertions of the weekend. I found Him waiting, sitting in the armchair in our bedroom. As I approached Him, He stopped me with an icy tone in His voice.<br />
<br />
I wasn't expecting to see such darkness in His eyes. <br />
<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-18609325872089136932015-08-22T10:57:00.000-07:002015-08-22T10:57:04.804-07:00The Long Night and the Girl at the Club<i>Continued from <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/primed-for-night.html" target="_blank">Primed for the Night</a>: this slave's account of being loaned for the weekend...</i><br />
<br />
Even though her eyes were downcast, she could feel the weight of their stares as she walked, guided by the leash, into the club following behind the Mistress. The club was still part of the clothing optional resort but it seemed everyone else chose to wear clothes, making her keenly aware of her condition.<br />
<br />
Just to the right, after walking through the door, was a small little area with a couple of couches and a stripper pole in between. The Mistress removed the leash and insisted on seeing her dance. Again, this was something she had never done before and didn't even know how to begin working the pole. <br />
<br />
When it became obvious that she had no idea what to do, the Mistress hopped on the platform, wrapped her hand around the pole and showed her a few sexy moves. The two woman briefly danced around the pole together before the Mistress stepped back down, letting the slave take back over. <br />
<br />
The slave couldn't help but notice that while they had been tucked away fairly alone, others were starting filter over to that area and watch. She wasn't sure how well she was dancing but she was having fun. And the only unfortunate part was that the plug she was wearing had become quite distracting, threatening to pop out every single time she squatted or bent over.<br />
<br />
Moving on to the bar and main dance floor area, the slave stood close by the Mistress but was quickly sent away to ask the DJ specifically for stripper music. She wasn't in danger of having to strip since she was already not wearing clothes but the Mistress had her remain on the dance floor. Alone on the dance floor, with plenty of people watching from the bar, she began seductively dancing as the Mistress demanded. <br />
<br />
The Mistress began sending her to find men sitting alone and had her dance for them. Some of the men appreciated the show, while others did their best to look away. This made her even more self-conscious and uncomfortable.<br />
<br />
Then came an unexpected task for the evening. As the Mistress said the words, the slave almost couldn't believe what she was hearing. She would not be allowed to go to sleep that night until she had brought two men to orgasm. <br />
<br />
After the slave had danced for several men, the Mistress made her first move to initiate <i>something more</i>. As she was dancing for one man in particular, the Mistress introduced her as "cum slut". He was so confused and could not understand the name he had heard. Both women tried to explain several times what the slave was. <br />
<br />
But when the Mistress asked the man if he wanted his dick sucked, he didn't hesitate for a moment. Moving outside the club near the pool, before the slave could suck his cock, she was expected to beg for it.<br />
<br />
What she realized in that moment is that it is one thing to be commanded to do something, even if it is humiliating. It is quite another to actively participate in one's own humiliation and degradation. <br />
<br />
She knelt down on the concrete, scraping her knees, and took his cock in her mouth. As it hardened, the Mistress grabbed the back of her head, forcing her up and down on it in an effort to make her gag.<br />
<br />
After only a few minutes, the Mistress stopped her. It was as if she enjoyed leaving the man with blue balls. The slave was made to find someone else. Once again, the slave had to beg, and once again another cock was in her mouth. <br />
<br />
With the Mistress affording each man very little time, and emotionally toying with them as much as she was the slave, it wasn't until the third guy that the slave was finally rewarded for her efforts and swallowed her first of two loads. What the slave didn't know at the time was this man had heard from a friend about "the girl at the club" and had raced down purposely seeking her services.<br />
<br />
Making their way inside the second club on the property, the slave and Mistress danced together. Coincidentally, <i>Girls Just Wanna Have Fun</i> began playing. It was a song that they had sung karaoke at a different place and time. Even though she was still leashed, the slave and Mistress laughed and danced in the crowded room like a couple of young girls.<br />
<br />
How quickly things took a turn.<br />
<br />
They made their way to a pair of couches and yet another stripper pole. Only this time, instead of the pole being tucked away in the corner, it was the focal point of the room. She was again made to pole dance, only this time, she tried not to look out and notice the sea of people watching. Thankfully, the plug that had restricted her movements before had been removed and she was able to move about gracefully.<br />
<br />
The Mistress caught her eye and made her turn and face the crowd. The slave was ordered to play with herself. Burning under the lights and the stares of dozens of men and women, the slave closed her eyes, leaned back against the pole and began touching herself.<br />
<br />
It had only been a few moments when the Mistress signaled her over to where she was sitting. She was told to lay over the Mistress's lap. With her ass in the air, the slave was paddled in front of the entire club.<br />
<br />
Pointing to the men sitting on the adjacent couch, she was made to choose a cock to suck. Walking over to the sofa, she chose the man sitting to the far left and begged to please him. He unzipped his pants and the slave took his cock in her mouth. <br />
<br />
Even as the man was enjoying her pleasure, the Mistress made the slave stop. Only this time, instead of sending her to another man, the Mistress ordered the slave back over to her. She ordered the slave to kneel between her legs. Lowering her head, she pleasured the Mistress knowing all eyes in the room were on them.<br />
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<br />
When they all returned to the condo, the slave asked to check in with her Master as it was late and they hadn't spoken since she arrived. Walking outside where it was quiet, she heard the sound of his voice and all of the the emotions she had suppressed throughout her ordeal threatened to burst forth. Her voice trembled when he asked her if she was alright.<br />
<br />
She tried to assure him that she was okay but the quiver in her voice said otherwise. She let her Master know the night had been more intense than she had anticipated and she was exhausted from the demands of the past seven hours. <br />
<br />
The Mistress came outside and sat down on the step beside her. Her Master and the Mistress began conversing on speaker phone. And as the Mistress began telling her Master the things she had been doing, she made the slave affirm each statement The slave could barely answer "Yes, Ma'am", as she wilted with each question.<br />
<br />
Before the Mistress ended her conversation, she let the Master know the slave was still not done completing her obligations for the night. She reminded the slave that she was required to make two men cum before she could go to bed and she wasn't done with her task. She let the slave know that she was going to have to go into the living room and please the two men staying there. Fatigued and defeated, the slave whimpered "Yes, Ma'am".<br />
<br />
She hung up the phone and walked into the living room to please the men waiting there.<br />
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<br />
Thirty minutes later, she stumbled into the Mistress's bedroom anticipating sleep but the Mistress and her boyfriend had other ideas. The slave doesn't remember how many times she came. She was used for their pleasure for nearly two more hours.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Nyghtbird-The Girl at the Club (photo taken by the Mistress)</td></tr>
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little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com23tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-51670325140493195952015-08-19T19:08:00.000-07:002015-08-21T12:37:06.053-07:00Primed for the Night<i>Continued from <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/inititation-of-cum-slut.html" target="_blank">Initiation of Cum Slut</a>: this slave's account of being loaned for a weekend... </i><br />
<br />
After returning from dinner, the slave prepared and served drinks. She had learned very quickly how to properly present in this situation as the Mistress is very particular about protocol. Kneeling with her arms outstretched and above her head, the Mistress accepted the drink from the slave's hands and then requested the large duffel bag of toys that had been packed and sent with the slave by her Master. The Mistress seemed quite pleased as she opened the bag and looked over the assortment of goodies. Settling on the 3 layer leather slapper, she instructed the slave to stand and bend over. <br />
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There were several other men sitting close by, watching. Since she had already been punished in front them earlier, there wasn't much shock in being completely exposed and spanked in front of them now. The first few swats stung only a little. Then the Mistress told her to bend all the way over, touching her hands to the ground. Still wearing the very high heels, this was a bit difficult but she managed by to touch her finger tips to the ground by bending her knees slightly. Each swat to her ass was harder than the previous. As the leather landed lower down where the skin was stretched tight across the back of her legs just under her cheeks, it took her breath away. She yelped and crumpled to the ground when one well placed slap caught her directly between the legs. The tears instantly flowed.<br />
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She could barely get back into position when ordered to do so. The Mistress had found her weakness that quickly. Pussy spanking is almost unbearable for her. After a moment, she resumed her position but braced herself for the next set. With trembling legs, she was instructed to turn around, this time facing the Mistress. Again, the Mistress honed in on her weakness. "You like having your nipples slapped, don't you?"<br />
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She answered truthfully, "<i>No, Ma'am</i>". <br />
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She was instructed to put her arms behind her, arch her back to push her breasts out, and tilt her head back. The Mistress stood to her right side and used the slapper, hitting each of her nipples over and over again. Every time her body instinctively pulled forward to protect her breasts, the Mistress scolded her and demanded she pull her head back again to expose her breasts. The Mistress began taunting her, demanding to hear swear words. <br />
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The slave's mind was reeling at this point. Not only is she typically forbidden from cursing, but she also knows that she can only process pain when she is quiet and stoic. Almost unable to form words, she continued to endure the leather as long as she could. <br />
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The Mistress kept on until the tears turned to sobs and finally the flood gate of swear words broke free. She was cursing, pleading, and begging for the Mistress to stop. And upon hearing the words she wanted to hear, the blows ceased.. As the slave stood still crying and shaking, the Mistress began gently wiping the tears from her face and assuring her that her tears were wanted. <br />
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After asking permission to use the restroom, she was alone for a minute trying to compose herself and thought how, again, this was a first for her. Accepting pain is simply an act of submission, and never before had anyone else, besides her Master, pushed her limits of pain tolerance.<br />
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The Mistress stopped her at some point a little while later when she was in the bedroom and acknowledged that she could be tough and demanding. But even more important, she wanted the slave to know that at any point she needed a break, she need only say so as long as it was communicated between just them and not in front of anyone. It was a sweet moment because despite how hard her limits were pushed, the slave understood that neither wanted to put their friendship in jeopardy.<br />
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It couldn't have been but a few minutes later, while she was kneeling on the patio, that the Mistress instructed her to move towards one of the men, the Mistress's boyfriend, and was ordered to take his cock in her mouth. After a few minutes the Mistress stopped her and pointed to one of the other men, only this this time, she had to beg for his cock. Her mind went blank.<br />
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It was one thing to beg for her Master's cock, but someone she barely knew, that was a different situation all together. Lucky for her, he gave in pretty quickly, sparing her further embarrassment. As she moved around to the third man, he would not be so easily persuaded. She pleaded, letting the man know how bad she wanted it and was rewarded. This experience had been, by far, the biggest challenge for her so far that night. <br />
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Each cock had only received a few minutes of attention before the Mistress stopped her. She was still kneeling as the Mistress petted her and brought her face up close to her own, lips parted. <br />
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"Do you want to kiss me?"<br />
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"<i>Yes, Ma'am"</i> the slave quickly answered. Secretly, she had wondered what this moment would be like since the day they had met a couple years ago. <br />
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But the Mistress's response caught the slave off guard. "Do you really expect me to kiss that mouth after it's been on all those cocks?". <br />
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The slave flushed. Nothing like a little added dose of humiliation. <br />
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The slave offered to go brush her teeth and upon returning was finally allowed to kiss the Mistress. <br />
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The evening was growing late and there had been talk of going to the nightclub on the property. The Mistress changed into a short, tight black party dress. Kneeling on the floor, the slave slid the heels onto the Mistress's feet.<br />
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The chosen outfit for the slave was something the Master had packed and is one of His favorite outfits. It is a merely a bunch of straps and nothing else. Each strap accentuating the slave's body...and her nakedness. <br />
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Still wearing her heels, tweezer clamps with bells adorned her nipples, and she was filled with a butt plug. <br />
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Before the group left, the Mistress explained the rules for the rest of the night. <br />
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-You will only refer to me only as Mistress<br />
-You will only refer to yourself only as cum slut <br />
-You will keep your eyes lowered and not speak unless I tell you otherwise<br />
-You will walk one step behind me at all times. <br />
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With that, the pink leash was clasped to the ring at the neck of her outfit, and she was led out the door for what would surely be a night never forgotten... <br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-46572716930775299042015-08-17T19:35:00.001-07:002015-08-19T19:10:03.612-07:00Inititation of the Cum Slut<span style="font-size: small;"><i>Continued from <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/into-lionesss-den.html" target="_blank">Into the Lion(ess)'s Den:</a> This slave's account of being loaned for the weekend... </i></span><br />
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Walking naked back down the steps to the car to retrieve her belongings, she realized just how quickly the tone was set. But it wasn't until dinner that she fully appreciated how intense this experience was going to be.<br />
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Dinner was planned with some friends of the Mistress staying at the condo just below and everyone was saying their hello's when someone asked the slave's name. The Mistress quickly answered, "This is <i>cum slut</i>". The woman seemed a bit amused at first but then, seriously, asked for her real name. The Mistress didn't give an inch. And even when the slave was questioned directly, she followed the Mistress's lead and answered the same way.<br />
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Making her way to the patio, the Mistress took a seat, with the slave following right along behind. Gingerly, she knelt down on the rough concrete beside the chair, trying carefully not to scrape herself while shifting around to get comfortable. Thankfully, it wasn't long before she was instructed to find a couple wash cloths to protect her knees.<br />
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The Mistress herself wasn't eating but did ask the slave if she would like something. Her stomach had been in knots all day but was also entirely empty. Suspecting she might need her strength, she swallowed the lump in her throat and squeaked out the words "Yes, Ma'am".<br />
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She was to make a plate and bring it to the Mistress, but she had to crawl both to the kitchen and back. Again, she tried to be careful as to not scrape her knees on the concrete and she was pretty sure people were watching and talking as she crawled away, but she tried to remain focused on her task and being gracious to those that had prepared the meal.<br />
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Crawling back, one hand on the floor and the other holding the plate, she handed the plate to Mistress. "Did you make it how you would like it?". She again answered "Yes, Ma'am.<br />
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The Mistress set the plate down on the ground, instructing her to place her hands on either side of the plate and eat. She had been made to eat and drink on the ground like a dog before, but never in front of anyone had she been humiliated in such a way. Mostly people carried on conversation as if she wasn't there. Sometimes people did talk to her but anytime a compliment was offered, like how well she was using her tongue to help bring the food into her mouth, she made sure to show her appreciation by kissing that person's foot.<br />
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After her initial arrival that evening, it had not taken long for her to receive her first punishment for unintentionally breaking this rule. She had been put over the Mistress's knee and given five very hard swats with the sole of Mistress's sandal. Almost instantly, tears had welled in her eyes but she fought them back. Not only was it extremely painful, but it was the first time she had ever been punished in front of people. She felt not only did her failure let the Mistress down, but also her Master.<br />
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Slowly but surely she was able to clean her plate. Eating a burrito without any hands is a bit tricky but she was extremely was glad to be able to do it with a bit of grace and skill.<br />
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After taking her plate back to the kitchen, the Mistress had more plans for her and she quickly became a bit of entertainment.<br />
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Crawling to the center of the room, she was instructed to kneel and then lay back, touching her head to the floor and keeping her legs bent up underneath her. She was completely exposed as this position forced her body into a natural arch. Several people stood around watching as Mistress told her to touch herself. At that moment, she wanted to crawl into a hole and hide. All kinds of thoughts tried to flow through her mind because, again, this was something she had never done before. But rather than allow her mind to run away with her, she simply closed her eyes, shutting out everything, and went on auto-pilot.<br />
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As she rubbed circles around her clit, she heard the Mistress encouraging her to push her fingers to play with her hole and even probe further inside. The position was incredibly stressful and didn't allow her the same reach as it would if her legs were out from under her. She could then hear the Mistress talking to one of the men, who she didn't find out until later was also a submissive. He was being offered the opportunity to touch the cum slut. The slave didn't hear him answer but knew all too well what was coming.<br />
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His fingers probed her opening and the Mistress demanded to know if it was wet. He answered that it was. The Mistress then asked if wanted his cock sucked. The cum slut was made to suck his fingers clean before sitting up and being presented with his cock. She took it in her mouth, squeezed her eyes closed even harder, and knew that all eyes in the room were on them.<br />
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Mistress taunted him asking if he wanted to cum and when he said yes, she told the slave to lay back again. He stroked himself as he watched her resume playing with her pussy, finally spilling his pleasure on her body.<br />
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Allowed to get up and go clean herself off in the bathroom, she happened to catch a glimpse at a clock. It was only 8:00. She had only just arrived two short hours earlier and was in shock by all that had already happened. She was afraid to imagine what else the rest of the night would hold...little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-33450435505129039772015-08-13T17:32:00.001-07:002015-08-19T19:10:45.748-07:00Into the Lion(ess)'s Den<span style="font-size: small;"><i>Continued from <a href="http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/08/and-she-thought-she-had-weekend-free.html" target="_blank">And She Thought She Had the Weekend Free:</a> This slave's account of being loaned for the weekend...</i></span><br />
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As requested, she sent one last message letting her Master know she had arrived safely. Saying goodbye to Him in the parking lot of her office earlier that afternoon nearly tore her heart out. She confided to Him that she felt like a kid being sent away to camp, not how she thought the weekend was going to go by a long shot. <br />
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The two hour ride felt like forever, yet somehow seemed not quite long enough. No one else had ever dominated her and the fear of that great unknown played out in her head over and over. <br />
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Her instructions to start were simple. <i> <br /><br />Wear something easily removed<br /><br />Heels but no bra or panties<br /><br />Kneel with eyes downcast and wait for Mistress's foot to be presented. Kiss it and await further instruction.</i><br />
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She sat inside her car, just outside the condo trying to still her mind. She had already changed into a black strapless sundress before leaving work, but used those last moments in the car to slip into her heels and out of her panties.<br />
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As she walked towards the door, the sound of her heels pounded across the wood decking almost as loudly as the sound of her heartbeat thumping in her ears. And once she stood in front of the door and knocked, she wasn't sure if she should be kneeling when the door was opened or wait to be brought inside. <br />
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She erred on the side of caution but when the door swung open she realized quickly she had been mistaken and was already embarrassed. She quickly stood up and the gentleman that had opened the door told her she could resume her position in the living room area. The Mistress's voice could be heard coming from the outside patio when she was informed of the slave's presence but the slave continued to kneel and wait.<br />
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Seconds clicked by, an eternity, before she heard the stern instruction, "Slut, you come out here to me". Not knowing whether to stand or crawl, she chose to crawl and was happy that this seemed pleasing. She also couldn't help but notice how beautiful the Mistress looked with nothing but a sarong covering her from the waist down.<br />
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Before coming any closer, she was ordered to stand and remove her dress. As she stood completely bared, except for the heels on her feet, she turned, presenting her entire body to the Mistress and her guest. She knew she should feel embarrassed, but their obvious pleasure as she bent over to display all of her assets, actually put her at ease. <br />
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The slave then resumed crawling and once she reached the Mistress's chair, she kissed the foot presented. This act alone is a simple reminder of how far she has come. There was a time when the thought of touching someone's feet would have probably been some type of limit for her, much less kissing them.<br />
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Now that the proper greeting had taken place, the two women stood and hugged as friends typically do and the slave was sent to bring in her bags and get settled in...<br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-66708871246694778832015-08-11T18:27:00.000-07:002015-08-12T05:04:41.849-07:00And She Thought She Had the Weekend Free...At the very end of my last post, I mentioned that I had some special plans for this past weekend. I had been invited by a friend within the lifestyle to go clothing optional resort for the weekend, which was exciting as it was something I had never done before. <br />
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Through a crazy turn of events, I was <i>literally </i>hitting PUBLISH on that post Thursday night when I got a text on my phone. My friend was asking if Heron had given me any particular rules or tasks for the weekend. She then told me that I was free to give Heron her number if He cared to "conspire" on anything. Now, I knew she was pretty well experienced and quite tough as a Mistress so this was both exciting and scary for me. <br />
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In the span of a few short minutes, the two of them were talking. Even though I had never "played" or participated in any type of scene with her, we both trust her implicitly. They discussed ideas she had, ideas He had, limits, etc. And just like that, my weekend went from that of rest and relaxation to something far different. Heron agreed to my being her slave for the weekend.<br />
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<i>Yes...I was being loaned!</i> <br />
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Since I returned home Sunday, I have had a lot to process. The experience was unlike anything I had ever been through. Some of it was really good, but some of it pushed me <b>FAR</b> past my comfort zone into places I never thought possible. <br />
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Slowly but surely I intend to write about some of it, probably not all. As always, there will be pieces I keep for myself and Heron. To be completely honest, I debated writing about this at all. But in all fairness,
it is a <b><i>huge</i></b> leap in my journey and now part of my growth as a slave.<br />
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I realize some of it may be uncomfortable to read about, some of you may even have very strong feelings about it. <br />
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Please keep in mind, this is the dynamic we have and it is consensual. I trust Heron enough to do with me as He wishes, even if that means He entrusts me to someone else. I knew there was a point in time this may come. I think the scary realization for me is that I am beginning to believe that there is nothing I won't do to please Him. <br />
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He carries the responsibilities for the choices made and as I re-tell the story, He will be glad to address any questions or comments Himself. He has had a great deal to process as well and I think we are doing a great job of that together. <br />
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<br />little girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17239564937960323449noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4677975708066818438.post-25642588646734226582015-08-06T17:56:00.002-07:002015-08-12T05:58:37.978-07:00Back to Routines...and New ExperiencesVacation was great and the beach was absolutely beautiful. Oh...wait...we did see a shark!! It was like a scene from Jaws...people running out of the water, frantically looking for their children. The lifeguards paddled out and confirmed it was <b><i>ONLY</i></b> about a 6 foot long hammerhead. Crazy...huh?<br />
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But no matter how nice vacation is...it's always nice to get back home to your own home, your own bed, and all your other comforts.<br />
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I did manage to get myself in a little bit of trouble on the last day of the trip though. Guess just being out of our normal element and routine, I was just feeling very full of myself and got a bit sassy. It was all meant very playfully and Daddy seemed to really enjoy the fact that I was digging quite a hole for myself. <br />
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Later that evening, He sent the kids down to the beach because we needed to pack...or so I thought. As soon as they left, He rummaged through the kitchen drawer in the condo, pulled out a plastic slotted spatula and pointed to the bedroom. <br />
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<i>Oooo...I might have poked the bear one too many times! </i><br />
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He bent me over the side of the bed and immediately brought the spatula down on each of my cheeks. I can't even describe the pain. I've been spanked plenty of times with a spatula but this time it was so intense that my body immediately tried to bolt back upright. He tried forcing me back down with His free hand and after only a few more strikes, the spatula broke. <br />
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As He returned to the kitchen, I buried my face in the bed trying to hold back the tears, unsuccessfully I might add and truly regretting my smart mouth. He returned this time with a wooden spoon and continued paddling hard and fast. There was no chance to count like usual to focus my mind, I just held my breath and waited for it to end. Within moments afterwards, the kids returned with impeccable timing as always, but just like that, all was right in our world again.<br />
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Life since we got home has been crazy getting ready for the kids to start school. I really enjoy the summertime without worrying about sports, homework, bedtimes, etc. but just like our D/s relationship, our family functions better with structure and routine. The youngest started middle school this week and the oldest will be starting college in about 10 days. So, needless to say, I am very happy to be returning to a normal type schedule. <br />
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On a different note, there are a couple of things happening this month that I am SUPER excited about. Both should be fun but will push my limits of comfortability a bit, perhaps alot. I'm not going give away one of them just yet but the other happens this weekend and I have been looking forward to it now for about a month. A friend, someone I met at the very first munch I ever attended a couple years ago, invited me to spend the weekend at a clothing optional resort!! <br />
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This was an opportunity I just couldn't resist and Daddy wouldn't have wanted me to miss out on it anyways. He is always supportive and encouraging me to experience life and have fun, even if it's not something that he isn't interested in doing. <br />
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So...as they say...<i>let the good times roll</i>!!<br />
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