First let me start by wishing everyone a Happy Easter. I hope you were able to spend special time with loved ones today!
Now tomorrow may be April Fools, but I assure you it will be no joke for me. Tomorrow marks the day I am entering a new phase in my training to become a better slave. Depending on how much time Master and I are able to devote, this training should last 1-2 months. My goal...earning my collar!
Even though I already think of myself as a slave, I do still lack many protocols both in and out of the home, especially in conducting myself around other Doms and subs. My Master has been doing quite a bit of research and with the help of another, has developed an extensive plan intended to test not only my deepest boundaries, but also my strength of body and mind.
Don't get me wrong, there has been training along the way but my understanding is this will be directed more towards managing my every decision (micro-managing so to speak). To this point, I have still maintained quite a bit of my own freedom of choice. Moving forward, my only responsibility will be to heed his every command and direction, with no hesitation or doubt. He is charged with teaching, guiding, and disciplining for every infraction. This, in the end, will make me better.
As I look upon tomorrow, I have mixed feelings. Excitement because I am about to start a new phase of our M/s relationship. Excitement at the prospect of earning my collar and officially being His. Excitement that I will truly earn my position as a slave and have done so in a way that all within the community can be proud. Most of all, excitement knowing that this experience will continue to strengthen the bonds that have already formed since we committed to this lifestyle.
However, I have been warned, there will be days I feel I can do nothing right and this is the that part worries me most. You see, I very much like to do EVERYTHING right, and when I don't, nobody can be more upset than I am with myself. I will work on acceptance, letting go of guilt, and handling punishments with grace and poise.
I intend to blog often so you can follow this journey with me. Your words of advice or encouragement along the way will be much needed and extremely appreciated.