Monday, December 8, 2014
He Is My Constant
I hated that I haven't posted in a little while. Guess with the holiday season quickly approaching, time is getting away from me and so are the number of shopping days for that matter.
Admittedly, I have just felt a bit down in the dumps lately. The Christmas spirit has been slow to make a move on me this year. It's not that I am a bah-hum-bug or anything. Really, I do love the holidays. Spending time with the people that are important to me is what I love.
What I find frustrating is that the important things tend to get lost with the hustle to run from one gathering to another and frantically shop for presents. Well, you all know the drill.
Every year, I tell myself I will start earlier next year but late fall is absolutely the busiest time of year at work so it just never seems to happen.
The holidays are also just a sad reminder of a huge gap in my life and a reminder that my family is broken in so many ways. Not mine and Heron's relationship and our kids, but the family I grew up with. Gatherings are forced and awkward, never warm and loving, never full of laughs and great memories.
Something else that hasn't helped is that we are now in the fifth year of my mother living with us. Apparently, this year she decided to start decorating MY house her way...which hasn't helped my frustration level one bit. I did say that I was extremely controlled as a child, right? And now that she's trying to do it in my own house...well, let's just say, I have honestly been about to blow a gasket.
Heron is wonderful though. He is the constant in my life. And when all else is haywire, it's His love, support and guidance that keeps me sane.
So finally, yesterday I forced myself to get my decorations out and take over what had already been started. The house looks beautiful and I'm feeling more in the spirit.
Now, if I could just get motivated to finish the shopping!!