What a way to start the New Year!
The loss of something near and dear to me. The loss of one of my very own appendages.
Don't worry, not on my body. MY CELL PHONE!! Literally, my phone is attached to me at all times, especially since I usually have well let's just say questionable material on it.
Sometime while we were out on New Year's Eve, I must have lost it. I retraced all my steps, searched high, and low and can only assume at this point, it is in the grubby paws of someone who hopefully enjoys my naked pics...cause many of them were there.
Urrrgggg....my life was in that small little device. Until the last year or so, I have never become so dependent on something. Hell, I even have reminders set for my chores.
Needless to say, I was really bummed yesterday when I realized that finding it was hopeless. Mostly, I was completely frustrated at myself for being careless, and mad that my mistake was going to cost us money that we didn't need to spend. He worked hard on our budget for this new year and here I go and screw it up on the very first day.
Finally, I sat on the couch and sighed. Master said, "let it go". My response...But I am so upset with myself!
What He said next left me in shock.
I understand...I would be upset too. But you have one hour to be mad or pout and then I want you to let it go.
Rather than chastising me for being careless as I thought might happen, or dismiss my frustrations as He might have done in our previous life, He actually gave me the freedom to feel what I was feeling.
I sat there for a few moments and then got up to go help my daughter re-arrange her room. I didn't even want to stay mad anymore. He took control of it that easily.
Come to think of it, now that I put in words, how did He allow me the freedom to my feelings but in essence still controlled them? Does that even make sense?