Saturday, February 1, 2014
The Slippery Road
This has been one crazy week! One that everyone in my city will be talking about for decades to come. You've probably seen it in the news. The southern city that fell to it's knees and came to a grinding halt on Tuesday from a little bit of snow. I can't even describe to you what it was like...hours of being on the road only to realize you were never getting home. Many people had no choice but to either stay in their cars for 24 hours or more or to abandon their cars to find shelter in nearby offices, stores, and restaurants.
Master and I were lucky enough to at least have been together. Our kids were some of the lucky ones that actually made it home from school but we couldn't get there. The farthest I could get from my office was a few miles away to His office where we made the decision to stay put for the night. We would have never made it home and it was better knowing that even if we were separated from our children, we were all safe and warm. The scenes unfolding around us were mind boggling and I don't think life has completely returned to normal for any of us just yet.
Other things have been happening this week too, other not so good things. I guess you could say my submission is on as thin ice as these cars. I slid out of control, causing a huge traffic jam in what we do.
It started when I told Him "NO". He was disappointed in my disobedience. I've voiced my concerns about this one thing for a while, but to Him, it's non-negotiable. Looking back, I could have handled it differently but I would have just been kicking this issue down the road. We would have had to address it at some point.
So, now we find ourselves at a impasse.
It's clear that my unwillingness or inability in this expectation is a game changer for Him.
All of a sudden, things got muddled and I seem to have lost my way, slid down the hill and am stuck at the bottom. I am confused, hurt, and totally unsure of where we stand at this point.