Sunday, November 9, 2014
Revisting Maintenance Spankings
This week brought the return of daily maintenance spankings. And I suspect they will continue for some time.
When He gets home from work, I am to greet him as usual. Either before we eat dinner or directly after, just depends on how hectic things are at the moment, I am to go upstairs in the closet, pull my pants to my ankles, and wait for Him and whatever implement He has chosen for that day.
Much to my surprise, I received my maintenance yesterday as well, even though it was Saturday. He hadn't specifically made a provision for the weekends but I guess we are clear that this is a daily occurrence as long as He desires it to be.
Anyways, this week, I noticed something. Actually, I had noticed it before but never wanted to ask about it.
Friday evening, after coming in from from work, the kids were already gone with friends and the house was quiet. He gave me that look and pointed for me to head upstairs. I went in the closet, and as He had every day this week, He instructed me to pull my pants down and assume the position.
And afterwards, just like every other day, when the spanking was done, He said for me to pull my pants back up and walked out without a touch of affection.
Being that this was a Friday night and a night I am not usually expected to cook, He told me to get ready so we could go get dinner. While we were out, I just had to know, not because I was questioning His methods but because I just really wanted to understand. I sheepishly sat across the table from Him, stumbling around on my words, until He got frustrated and told me to just speak whatever was on my mind.
Finally, I asked...what, if anything, does He get out these maintenance spankings??
I didn't really want to describe them as "cold" and "unfeeling" but that's kinda what it seemed like to me. I know that I shouldn't place any expectations on His actions but I really started to wonder why there is no outward show of emotion from Him before, during, or directly after. It all had the feel of a business transaction.
His explanation actually made perfect sense and was a perspective I hadn't even considered. It's simply how He chooses to reinforce our roles and transition after being apart all day. As far as the "unemotional" aspect, that is done with intention.
The goal of maintenance is still very much about reconnecting, but for Him, maintenance isn't about play. It isn't about passion. It's about "I am the Master, you are the slave".