Back a few weeks ago, Heron implemented a set of new expectations, we'll call them long-term temporary expectations. I might have mentioned this in other recent posts but I haven't given too many specifics about what these expectations entailed.
Well, one of them is to provide Heron a story. But not just a story...a story every week.
I have mentioned how THIS is not my favorite thing to do, right?
So naturally, I should become better and more at ease with it if I do it every week I suppose.
The one thing I have learned while trying to adapt to this expectation and the process of developing each week's story is why the whole darn thing is so difficult for me. Yes, I am somewhat shy and worry that my story will be "uninspiring", but more importantly, I realize how different we fantasize. And that's what makes coming up with fodder for a story so difficult.
Heron has an amazing imagination. You read about it in the some of our scenes that I have shared here in my blog. And to Him, fantasies are meant to be the same way. He creates this elaborate story in it's entirety, in His head. There's a beginning, an end, a plot (well kinda like a bad porno maybe...haha!) Details are so very important to Him, so that the scene and characters take on a life of their own.
I, on the other hand, got nothin'. I'm not creative...not imaginative. I am purely an analytical thinker. And this is where we differ and why I lack in the whole "story-telling" business. I don't need specifics or details. When I fantasize, it's only a scenario. There's no story, just an image in my mind of what is happening.
So, I guess this gap between our imaginations is why I struggle to meet His expectations. It's pretty bad that I have to do research to enhance these abilities.
The first week was a tale of blackmail and forced servitude. Good topic, bad execution.
The second week was only slightly better with a tale of being gang banged in a bar.
But tonight...what will tonight's story be? I have not a clue, yet!
Suggestions certainly welcomed:)